hi havnt been on here for long time,im still struggling with losing mum,i try an keep busy but she is never far from my thoughts and never will be,i have become bit of recluse and all my friends support seems to have disappeared as for my brothers family i hardly hear from them,i went to a rememberance service at the church where she is buried few months ago,my family knew about said they were coming but no one turned up,everyone else had familys there i was the only one on my own,since then i havnt mixed with them as everytime i would see them the sister in law who didnt help and stopped my brother from helping his mum takes great delight in telling me all the needless rubbish she has been buying with mums money,im trying to stay positive but find it difficult my cycling training has tailed away as i got injured mid summer and it looks like my big bike ride will have to be put off for another year,i was going to quit work and cycle from joh o groats to lands end to raise money for local dementia home where mum went to day centre
there are positives i won the roses cup again and had mums name engraved on the cup well it is her garden they came from,my music project has really taken off and had good write ups in the press and another trip abroad in jan to look forward to