I’ve not managed to write of late although have read your updates Sylvia, and they are much appreciated. Thank you.
Helen’s situation goes from bad to worse, heart breaking, and it sounds like hell on earth for her. I can’t see that it will get any better, the body takes its own time to die. She is only at peace when she does sleep well and her mind is not in over-drive. Stating the obvious I know… also the only time Martin and Mandy get any respite, a chance to recharge their batteries if they can. Hell on earth for all of them.
My impression has been that Helen would gladly ‘go gentle into that good night’ but it is not happening, her body is resisting.
A return to the hospice seems the best thing in all respects, but I don’t suppose that would be straightforward and would also take time…. Perhaps the GP is the one to set it all in motion?
Don’t know how Helen would feel about that, or if she is capable now of expressing a logical decision… But she did say earlier words to effect that being at home had not helped her.
A dreadfully difficult situation. I’m rather doubtful about the carers and nurses saying enough or anything unless directly asked, to assess the situation. But I could be wrong.
Sorry, I’m thinking as I write. I just feel so desperate for poor Helen. Also the tremendous toll it must be taking on Martin and Mandy.
Not easy for you either Sylvia even although you had come to terms with the inevitable.
You must be soon leaving for Bratislava, I wish you safe journeys and time to ‘catch your breath’, enjoy your friend and seeing her country.
Continuingly thinking about Helen, everyone involved, and if only wishes could come true, a peaceful time for Helen and an end to her suffering.
Love as always
Loo xxx