I was very sorry to read your update, mydadslife. Please accept my condolences on the death of your father. You have been through so much lately and it's a lot to process and take in. It takes time. It's not easy. Don't be hard on yourself when you're upset, or when things are difficult.
Please be kind to yourself, enjoy your family, and don't hesitate to reach out to seek help if you need it.
Very best wishes to you and your family.