Hi all
Am feeling very low after what i can only describe as a miserable mothers day. Had mum and dad and mother in law for lunch. Mum has been very tetchy lately. Whilst she remains fairly stable on the medication , she has started to display signs of anxiety and this manifests itself in her nasty comments. Unfortunately, it is me that becomes the target!! Its like you cant hold a conversation without her butting in and trying to control it. She has always suffered from low self esteem but all her bad traits seems to have magnified with the progression of her dementia. At the end of yesterday I felt like i just wanted to withdraw from her. I do lots for her and that is probably why dad and I take most of the insults. . I know I could never stop helping them out and dad is always so appreciative bless him. so I would be punishing him as well. I realise that you have to let these things just go but sometimes I feels pretty awful eh?My brother is her bule eyed boy and can do no wrong and my sister does her own thing and sees them when she feels like it. Sometimes I wonder if it is the illness or just mum getting back to what she was like before. It makes it very hard to like her, dont get me wrong i love her to bits, but she is not pleasant to be around. Then she rings me when she gets home and says what a lovely day she had etc. I just wanted to scream at her and say "mine was awful". But i am guessing she just doesn't remember the bad bits.
Thanks for listening to me going on. Just needed to get that off my chest. Sure there are lots of you going through much worse but its always good to get feed back from those who know what its like.
Take care and you are all in my thoughs
Love Maureen
Am feeling very low after what i can only describe as a miserable mothers day. Had mum and dad and mother in law for lunch. Mum has been very tetchy lately. Whilst she remains fairly stable on the medication , she has started to display signs of anxiety and this manifests itself in her nasty comments. Unfortunately, it is me that becomes the target!! Its like you cant hold a conversation without her butting in and trying to control it. She has always suffered from low self esteem but all her bad traits seems to have magnified with the progression of her dementia. At the end of yesterday I felt like i just wanted to withdraw from her. I do lots for her and that is probably why dad and I take most of the insults. . I know I could never stop helping them out and dad is always so appreciative bless him. so I would be punishing him as well. I realise that you have to let these things just go but sometimes I feels pretty awful eh?My brother is her bule eyed boy and can do no wrong and my sister does her own thing and sees them when she feels like it. Sometimes I wonder if it is the illness or just mum getting back to what she was like before. It makes it very hard to like her, dont get me wrong i love her to bits, but she is not pleasant to be around. Then she rings me when she gets home and says what a lovely day she had etc. I just wanted to scream at her and say "mine was awful". But i am guessing she just doesn't remember the bad bits.
Thanks for listening to me going on. Just needed to get that off my chest. Sure there are lots of you going through much worse but its always good to get feed back from those who know what its like.
Take care and you are all in my thoughs
Love Maureen