Drove to the memory clinic where we will take mum on Friday. I am so so scared that mum will freak out. Also, daughter about to start IVF. So tired of worrying (saw dad through cancer and husband through bullying/depression) Have had something serious to worry about for the last five years. Gosh, I sound sorry for myself. Just needed to offload.
Hey - you do not sound sorry for yourself. It is good to be able to offload on here and healthy to do so rather than to bottle it all up. You have a hell of a lot on your plate and it is good to be able to "get it all out". I don't worry if my mum freaks out at the memory clinic as everyone there knows it is a place for people with Alzheimer's disease. I was more embarrassed when she started singing VERY loudly during a pub lunch yesterday, "Give us a bash of the bangers n mash me muvver used to make...Oi!" I could have died! Her friend and myself did find it hilarious though bless her, as did the kind folk on the table next to her. And most importantly dear mum was laughing. I don't care to be honest just so long as she's happy.
I think it's time to start printing off some little cards to give to people when out in public saying, "My beautiful mum has Alzheimer's disease. Some things she says and does may be unusual. Thank you for your understanding" It is really sad her behaviour has become so erratic. She will try to eat coffee with a teaspoon and pick up an entire jacket potato (I cut things up now), but, as I say, so long as she's happy it is okay. Oh the other day she said, "shut up or I'll pull your teeth out" to the man next to us in the queue in ASDA! OMG I could have died! Yes definitely time for the cards.
I'm sorry if I sound heartless. Having a joke is my way of dealing with things. I love dear mum very much and will never stop taking her out so long as she still enjoys going regardless of how she behaves. x
