Well changed medication to 30 mg of mirtzapine and reduced lorazapam from 3 times to twice and what does that add up to a traumatic 2 days (not as bad as 3 weeks ago) but enough to say the stress levels are up again. Hubby today refusing to change clothes eat his breakfast how I managed to give morning meds I don't know. Will struggle to give him this afternoon. He is all suspicious again wont let me or anyone else go near him. Went wandering out in pyjamas when it was time for school run, little one gone to school upset seeing dad walking around outside. Left him to it when I got back he was standing in porch. I know its a waiting game until his body gets used to the medicines but even an hour now seems a life time. Eldest sons 25th birthday tomorrow haven't got anything in for him (I know he won't mind) but I do. Hope he will be at least settled by christmas so tempted not to listen to doctor and continue giving the lorazapam 3 times..........