Not literally I hasten to add! Basically as you know (thank you a million times for everyones kind words) Dad died on the 17th December, I have cried alot, felt angry, shouted at people, felt demotivated and lost...all normal I know. Last night though all I can suddenly think about was Dad's last week and how the palliative nurse had asked him if he was frightened and he said he was. It breaks my heart to think of him what he has been through and the fact that at the start we didnt believe him and thought it was just depression etc. He must have felt so alone and frightened and we were so useless. I feel so broken hearted and terrified that we did all wrong and now (and I know its mad) have started thinking that maybe there was more we could have done to help him and that we were all just willing him away.. Anyway these are dark and scary thoughts ....does anyone else feel these things?
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