mum has A/D and V/D she was in hospital for 3 months but went home with live in carers. it worked well but some of the carers where appalling. mum improved greatly in her home that she has lived in for 60 years. when she was in hospital i thought i would never see her smile again let alone laugh but she has laughed since she has been home. my sisters and brothers decided that the live in care was not working so mum had to move into a care home on wednesday i felt that she should have stayed at home with another agency. I went to see her yesterday in the care home, she is agitated keeps asking when she is going home, the room she is in is small. she sits in the room on her own all day, she is refusing to eat and today she has refused to have a bath. she doesn't want to be there she has dementia she is not stupid she knows that my sister who is telling her that it is temporary is lying.
i feel really angry, hurt,guilty,upset i feel as if i have let her down. i wish i had fought harder for her but i was worried that i would lose my sisters and brothers instead i am losing my mum.I am crying alot wanting to scream at everyone, but most of all i want to grab my mum and bring her home, which i cant do as i do not have the room in my house and i work full time and she wants to be in her home where all her memories are. i am going to see her tomorrow and i know that she will ask me to take her home. what do i say to her? my husband and children have been wonderfull really helping me but i am getting really snappy at them, they are not the ones i am angry with. i am angry with my siblings, myself even my mum for having this illness but most of all with dementia.
sorry for the rant but i dont want to say all this to my lovely family and i needed to say it or i feel i might explode.
I just hope that when i go and see my wonderfull mum tomorrow that she has forgotten all about her home and that she is back to her happy self.
thank you for letting me rant
i feel really angry, hurt,guilty,upset i feel as if i have let her down. i wish i had fought harder for her but i was worried that i would lose my sisters and brothers instead i am losing my mum.I am crying alot wanting to scream at everyone, but most of all i want to grab my mum and bring her home, which i cant do as i do not have the room in my house and i work full time and she wants to be in her home where all her memories are. i am going to see her tomorrow and i know that she will ask me to take her home. what do i say to her? my husband and children have been wonderfull really helping me but i am getting really snappy at them, they are not the ones i am angry with. i am angry with my siblings, myself even my mum for having this illness but most of all with dementia.
sorry for the rant but i dont want to say all this to my lovely family and i needed to say it or i feel i might explode.
I just hope that when i go and see my wonderfull mum tomorrow that she has forgotten all about her home and that she is back to her happy self.
thank you for letting me rant