What a heartache for you, the pain and sorrow in your words is tangible. What a terrible thief this condition is. It robs whole families, and I don't know how awful it is when it's a spouse. I lost my dad in every way long before he passed, his grandchildren and great grandchildren were robbed of the most kind and loving man in their lives. It must be even more devastating for you, all the hopes and plans you had for the future together have been dashed. I'm not really being a comfort, am I? But I really want to acknowledge what you're going through. We all have ideas of what our future looks like growing old together, enjoying retirement or all the little things as a couple, and suddenly everything is gone, except for this poor shell or shadow. Scarlett, I hope you have other joys in your life to help soften this sadness and don't forget that, while you miss having your man by your side you allow yourself to step into all the other good things around you.
Stephanie, xxx