Tears & feeling lost.

[Rosie]

Morning all,
Thought I was doing ok with my grief, but woke this morning at 2:40am, started thinking about my lovely Mam & the flood gates open & only now its down to sniffs..... the feeling I get is overwhelming , it just consumes me, I feel like a little girl again, afraid & lost, wanting her Mam to cwtch her & make things better. I never really understood what the feeling was like , losing someone you love, but at times it's really unbearable, & I keep thinking back to the last few days when she suffered so, those days haunt me, & thats all I could do at that time was pray to God to take her & end her suffering... I know she is at peace, but I feel so lost without my Mam... tears again, blurring my vision, thanks for listening, Luv Rosie x x x

[Vonny]

Dear Rosie,

It's always the unexpected times that hit us, isn't it. I'm so sorry you are missing your mum so much.

Take good care of yourself

Vonny xx

[maryw]

Dear Rosie,
It's horrible isn't it? I still get those moments too when it catches me unawares. I guess it's just normal. Look after yourself and spend time doing the things you enjoy xx

[shelagh]

Dear Rosie, Let the tears flow, a good mum deserves a daughter's tears. Each tear is a tribute to all you had together. They will get less,as the loss becomes part of you, but sometimes the grief feels overwhelming.
Thinking of you.
Shelagh

[Rosie]

Thank you for your kind replies, my Husband said to me, grief just catches you at moments when you least expect it, but he said let the tears come, and your advice here is always comforting, & I know everyone is understanding & caring x I am going back to work soon & feeling a bit apprehensive about how I'll cope, I'm a nurse working on a busy surgical ward & I really don't want to be bursting into tears every time I'm overcome, maybe I'll have to escape to the Staff toilet if I feel bit overwhelmed. Luv & hugs Rosie x x x

[Mameeskye]

HI Rosie

I think when you go back to work you will find that some how an automatic pilot takes over and you can deal with things because that it how you are conditioned to react at work. There can come the occasional moments when it hits you but I am sure that your colleagues will be sympathetic and an occasional loo break will be understood.


((((Hugs))))

Love

Mameeskye

[Helen33]

You have had such a long ordeal Rosie and you've had to hold it all together. Now it is safe to let it out and thank goodness that you can let it out

Love and a (HUG)

[hazytron]

Dear Rosie
The grief that you felt in those early hours of the morning is so soooooooo normal. Those feelings will, from time to time and when they are least expected, pop up and knock you flat.
They are horrid and difficult to deal with but they will, in time, lessen.
Being back at work will seem daunting, I am sure, but it may just be the best thing for you. I hope so.
Regards Hazel

[Rosie]

Thank you all again for taking the time to read my postings, your replies really help me, and i know what evertime of the day or night i can log on to TP and pour my heart out and there is always someone there with kind words, advice & lots hugs, thank you so much for being there for me, luv Rosie x x x

[zoet]

no advice for you....you dont need any because what should happen naturally is happening. Just know we are here.

(((HUG HUG HUG)))