It s just getting so bad now mum is phoning all the time saying she can't stand being on her own, she is crying all the time I don't know how much more we can cope with. I don' t look forward to weekends or anything anymore just dread the phone ringing and not being able to pacify her and then she hangs up on me leaving me feeling like a rung out dishcloth. There are three of us and we take it in turns to visit her for about 3 hours a day she doesn' appreciate it and complains all the time, she has always been a difficult woman which makes it all the harder to deal with. She has no conversation as she has no memory but insists we sit down and talk all the time we are there she does not want us to do any jobs, which would make visiting a bit easier. The minute you get home she is ringing to say she has not seen anybody all day. I go on 2 buses there and 2 buses back and just feel like its awaste of time. The doctor suggests she goes into a home but she will not hear of it. We have arranged for her to go to a day centre and then she would not go at the last minute, I suggest taking her out in a taxi but she says she will not go in a taxi she doesn't like them. She cannot go out on her own and she is very bad on her legs. She doesn't want to hear about anything we have done,she never has done, and as for going on holiday she ruins it for me every time I just feel guilty as if I shouldn't be going because she is jealous. I am 62 and feel like by the time I do not have all this going on I will be too old to enjoy life, its an awful way to feel and I feel awful for feeling like this. I know so many of you on this forum have terrible times and quite honestly there doesn' t seem to be any answers you just know it can only get worse.