Hi just wanted to share your grief with you. My Husband went into full time care 2 years ago at the age of 57, the alternative being a section which I didnot want.
I know exactly how you feel,I went every day to see him even though he is 19 miles away and it broke my heart. I have since been able to get part time work which has helped me socialise again and brought a little confidence back. I still miss my Husband so much and go to visit him when I am not working and at the weekends. But nothing takes the pain away it just becomes easier to bear. I cared for my Husband for 6 years on my own untill it effected my mental and physical health and would still do it now if I could, and sometimes I seem to think I can. In reality I know I cannot, but I know he is well looked after and I will never stop missing and Loving him, Be strong, you are in my mind and I know how hard it is. Life is so unfair !