By the time you read this Bryan will have passed a away a year ago today. To be exact 12.50 a.m. 18th. For the last 3 days i have been living a year ago, when i visited him etc.I know i am seeing my daughters and goin to his grave with flowers etc but it is now that it really is hard. But as Debbie has said we lost him a lot longer ago than a year.
The home tried to contact me about 12.30 on my landline but as i have a hearing problem and taken out my aids i did not hear. It was only when she also tried on my mobile which i had by my bed that i was woken by the flashing telling me of a call. As soon as i realised it was the home i rang back and she said Bryans breathing was shallow and i should come. By the time i was dressed and rang Russell and Debbie and a neighbour took me down i was too late. He had passed away about 5 minutes previous. I will never forgive myself for that.I should not have left him that evening. I know he was alseep but i would have been holding his hand.
I do miss bryan so much and feel so alone at the moment.
Love and hugs Muriel xxx