right, ive pulled myself together - was just being weak.
part of what i was trying to get across was that i understand that the carers job is a thankless one at times and is enough to drive anyone crazy with worry, sleep deprivation etc and the agony of seeing your loved one disappear before your eyes over a matter of weeks/years. i know the helpless feeling when caring for a loved one as my husband had a triple bypass (he is 42) last year and i would have swapped places with him rather than watch him go through that and the helplessness i felt at that time.
i certainly dont/wouldnt want anyone here on Tp to stop posting comments on how they feel as that is the whole point of this forum. i hope i ahvent upset anyone.
thank you all so much for your support and kind words. im not usually downhearted and i try to stay strong but i had to say what was in my heart.