Loss

[sallyc]

Hi Love.

I just wanted to say you know I'm thinking of you all the time.

If ever you need me, I'm here, ok?

((((((Hug))))))

[kassy]

Thanks to all of you,i do appreciate your posts.

I just feel numb now,i have nothing left in me to give.

[tre]

Kassy,
you seem to have done a lot of giving. Sometimes it must be your turn to receive
With love,
Tre

[Saffie]

Kassy - Hang in there. You can come through this and emerge the other side stronger. I just wish we could all be there in person for you rather that in different parts of the country. Sending all the positivity I can muster as well as love and hope that that sun shines soon. XXXXX

[together]

Dear Kassy,
So sorry but only just catching up properly (day 2 with a bug).Just wanted to send you the biggest HUG and say how much I'm thinking of you.I wish i could help more but you know we're all here and you are such a special person to us all - your caring and love shines through to us all. Wishing something positive to come your way very soon- you deserve it so so much, Love Katherine xxx

[Nanak]

Hi Kassy
Thinking of you today I hope you can take strength from all of us here. Sending (((hugs full of Sunshine))) from Oz
Nanak
missing what has gone and scared of what is to come

[kassy]

Thanks for your posts,especially when you are all going through so much yourselves.

[Authona]

Oh Kassy, I haven't checked in for a while. It strikes me that everyone that posts here feels you are a wonderful, kind, generous, thoughtful and giving person and values you for that. Then I feel sad because I don't know that you see all those things in yourself and value yourself. It seems you have suffered such severe rejection from those so, so close to you from whom you would naturally expect to hold onto for support whenever needed and to receive love, respect and care from at all times. Sometimes, I hear anger in your words at these people.

I have no answers. You must hold them within somewhere. Have you ever tried writing a list of all the things that are causing all the upset within you and then asking the question of whether you have any control over them ... ? I ask this because I am wondering if you are able to place some boundaries of protection somehow in stopping yourself from feeling so impacted from those things you can't control or cannot ever change ... ? Or perhaps placing some diversions from allowing these things to trigger you into the severe upset, hurt and anger that seem to feel so often and get so low afterwards ... guess I wish you could find some peace for yourself and ways to get that even when the going is so, so tough.

It's hard to know what to suggest but this came to me so I thought I would tell you.

Like others here, I too hope that your husband will be able to get the messages across to your son. I will keep my fingers crossed and, were I there with you, I would hold your hand for a while because ... I do care.

Ax

[kassy]

I have never or will ever value myself,i've been put down too much now.But thank you Authona.

[Helen33]

or will ever value myself

That sounds like such a powerful statement Kassy.

Love and a (HUG)

[Authona]

You know, there is a part of me that thinks you do value yourself somewhere (subconsciously perhaps) because I sense that, if you didn't, you wouldn't be able to feel angry and hurt towards those close to you when they challenge those values or fail to see them in you. Maybe I am wrong. I'm scared to post sometimes because I don't want to say anything wrong. I want to offer my thoughts but want them to help. If they don't help anytime, please say.

Take good care of you won't you. I'll no doubt check in again sometime soon
Ax

[kassy]

You never say anything wrong Authona,i'm very grateful to you.x

[tre]

Hello Kassy,
hoping you may be feeling a little brighter today. It is a beautiful morning where I am today and the snowdrops and crocuses are looking lovely in the garden.
With love,
Tre

[kassy]

Thank you Tre.

Everything is much worse,i am so alone.

[tre]

Oh kassy I am really sorry to hear that. Do not forget you have all your friends here.
With love,
Tre
Ps I am going out to buy the tickets