Just had to write down what i feel like this evening before i go to bed and try to sleep.I have had a busy last few days with friends and going out, doing gardening etc. and yet this evening i just feel so low and miserable again. I have just filled in forms and written out cheque for Bryans Headstone to be started. Whether that is anything to do with it i dont know but i feel so alone.
When i think of all the timeswhen Bryan was driving me up the wall with his constant moods, rubbish talk, agitation, anger, violence, demands etc. I wish so much that he was back here with me now, even as he was!But before this horrible desease kicked in would be lovely. But i know this will not happen. I have just got to get my head round it.
Sorry to go on, but i know you all understand.
Love and hugs Muriel xx