Can anyone tell me what Morphine actually does please ?
At the end of my mothers life I was orally administrating her with it and I cannot stop feeling that I speeded up her death, the guilt is very hard to explain but I feel that I in a way I killed her. The care home where fantastic and the nurses very kind.
She had fallen and broken ribs and got a little better then fell and banged her head. She never really recovered and went down hill very quickly in the end but when I gave her the morphine she drifted away but was obviously still feeling pain and her eyes gradually stopped looking at me.
I have tried to write this a few times but always deleted it.
Is guilt the most frequent word on this forum ? it shouldn't be as you are all the most fantastic people.