Hello all, mid afternoon yesterday i felt as though someone had come behind me and covered me in a lead overcoat. When i was diagnosed with heart failure i knew i was starting to get depressed and sought help, but since being diagnosed with Alzheimers 15 months ago i have noticed lately it has become much worse, though sometimes not that evident through my posts.
The feeling of utter despair, emptyness and desolation is sometimes so much its like having a complete blackness thrown over your eyes and weights placed around your shoulders. I have been prescribed some very good anti depressants a short while ago and wouldnt like to take any more so not to become (Slowed up any more than i already am is the polite wordage i think)
I often wonder if others who also have this horrid disease at my stage or indeed the later stages also suffer from this disabiltating depression but isnt recognised as such because we have Alzheimers?
There are days when i will go for hours without speaking of become so down all i want to do is sleep when this depression hits and i wondered if anybody else is in this position, especially in the later stages but unable to tell anybody how they feel?
Alzheimers and dementia is such a complicated disease with many factions added in and i thought it just might be worth a mention, hope this helps in some way.
Still feeling very low but a little better than yesteday, best wishes to all, Norrms and family xxxxxxxxxxxxxx