I'm certainly not cutting myself off from the outside world in fact I would say it's the complete opposite. I want help - but 'help' is not allowed in any shape or form in the house - according to my Mother. I don't have any supportive relatives - (I have a brother who has chosen to ignore the situation). There is no one else.
Do you honesatly think I wanted to take this on. I'd just divorced and was looking forward to starting a new life when Mum was diagnosed 6 years ago - I had no choice. Mum is 91 now and I'm a young 63 but I don't want this to be the end of 'my life'. I'll be sad when Mum goes but I will also be glad that she's not suffering. Just looking at her now - sitting there at her little table with a mug of tea spilling it over as she tried to drink it - I could weep.