Michele

hi michelle did post last night but computor crashed . rotton coming back off hols i agree, but mines a distant memory now. we are fine i will pm you over the weekend with an update of things here . have a good weekend love lynne xx

hello there are you back in the throws of things . hope you had a good holiday its horrible coming back isnt it hows your mum. xx

have a fantastic time you really deserve it speak in a week xxx

just popping in to say hello and to see that you are ok take care xx

Hi Michelle
Thanks for your msg!
It really is hard and its such a horrible time that you and me are going through! Its just the guilt of not being able to explain to her why she wont get better! She always asks me and it really chokes me up!
I do talk to dad every day and ask how things are but as you say yes i should probably say how down i am about it! I do just feel like it must be a really hard time for him though seeing his wife deteriate like this!

Im in the 3rd year at the moment and im hoping to move back home afterwards which im sure will be even harder! (Well it always is when youve had independance) I did apply for bournemouth uni but didnt get in which is good in a way because i think if i stayed at home through my studies i may not have got through it! Im in birmingham at the moment so its that little bit too far!!

I hope that you get on ok! Hope your mum is well, just remember all the happy memories!

Love
Laurenx

hi michele, Im back now in need of anouther holiday had a great time. my results were fine so one less thing to worry about. i somehow thought i would get back and everything would be back to normal again , i then realized i was back to reality. no change with dave but he said his legs are getting worse and everything is wearing him out. . you sound so sad in your blog its just not fair is it i hope you are feeling better and your mum has settled into a routine again , when my dad came home from hospital he was so confused he has dementia and after visiting every day for monthes i broke down and told him i couldnt cope looking after him and dave. . well from then on he was a different person still phones me every nite to see how I am , and keeps sayiing how much he loves me, now very deaf and forgets everything you say.[ spoke to him earlier and he had forgotton i had been away and i only came back last night] i find being firm with him helps love and a big hug lyn x

thanks michelle for your hug hows your mum is she back off holiday yet, i hope you managed to have a rest. i will speake to you in a week unless i have time in the morning big hug to you lyn xx

hi michelle. things not too bad at the moment dave seems reasonably ok ,hes just had an assesment for the antideppresants hes on, and hes doing well. im waiting for the results on some biopsys i had taken tues for a lump in my breast. i had cancer last year and they think it may of returned, i find out wed then am off to spain with two friends for six days, its great i can still get away and there is always my girls here. how are you doing and all your family, does your mum live on her own. my dad does he has dementia too but is so happy and i get all my cuddles off him these days, we always have the same repeated chats he forgets things within minutes sometimes, but he always makes me smile. i feel i have six children and feel tierd today but got two days off now how about you xx

hi michelle how are things with youive just started a blog and think its a great idea as a diary i can rattle on and say things i couldnt say to dave. how is your lovely mum oh how i wish i still had mine she was only 59 when she died. and hows all the children , do you work at all paid i mean im back tomorrow rather glad really xx

hi michele. thanks for ur reply i have four children andrew is 25 lee is 23 nicola is 22 and becky is 17. nicola has just qualified as a nurse andrew and lee work in IT and becky is stopping on at school. andrew has left home now but we see alot of him. things are a bit better here now but the last 2 years have been hell. at last someone took notice and you dont loose your speach or your mobility for no reason. Dave is on aricept and a trial drug called rember and also an antideppresant he very much looks after himself but he dosent do alot his memory is going a little and he gets confused. they say its alziemers but they have done genetic tests for FTD which is what i think it is.much love lyn/ wife and mum xx