Helen33

Dear Screen, I'm back and I am really not good.

The notes in the care plan read like a disaster. Alan is worse than ever (or is it because I am seeing him from fresh eyes?) - I don't think so. I have an email from the lady from the AZ Soc and another from the Social Worker and it seems there is much talking to do and much work to do and I really feel I cannot cope.

Now I've had a break I realise that out of this situation I am 'just me' and am not at all depressed....

It is 11.30pm and I can't wind down. My head is racing with all that has happened today and all that needs to be done tomorrow in order to set off at 8am Friday.

I have told my story today that many times that I can't even tell you Screen. I have spent more time on the telephone today than I have all year Even a neighbour phoned me to relate her troubles with the poor treatment of a relative in a residential home Why she would tell me I have no idea because she knows...

I woke up feeling like my normal self this morning although I am extremely tired.

I wrote to the Crossroads Care manager yesterday about that sitter who was involved in every event that led to the breakdown of a very well managed situation at home

I am actually glad though that we now have the resource of the care home whilst I'm working because this is better all round but it should never have happened in this way. I have written outlining the dates and events...

After talking to you this morning, five minutes later I was in floods of tears again and realised that I couldn't pick myself up. The window cleaner had been whilst I was talking to you and when I got downstairs the kitchen window still had all the same dirty marks it had before A bird flew into the window a couple of weeks ago and the evidence of greasy feather marks were still there. This is not the first time with these window cleaners but I was so anxious about what to do. Do I say...

Dear Screen, I am getting quite worried about myself. Jan came to visit me only 5 weeks ago and I look like a different person. I really do look tired, bedraggled and uncared for. I have all the signs of depression and yet I resist going to the GP because medication will mean weight gain and I just can't face that as well!! All the things that interest me are like a burden now. This year I have hardly sat out on the patio at all. It has never been known in my life. I am an outdoor girl...