Sharon Waugh

Started well but then got a call from my brother who was sobbing down the phone. It had just hit him that he will need to move out of the house sooner rather than later as Mum could be in a home by the end of next week. So, went and picked him up and brought him over to my house to help me with the gardening. It seemed to do the trick. Then went to see Mum and stayed 2 hours!! She was in a relatively good place. Not happy! but in a good place none the less. She was nice to me and didn't cry until I said I had to leave. Went home, had a drink and felt ok. Sunday - my brother came over for dinner. Went to see Mum last evening and my partner and my daughters and grandaughter came too. I thought now she had settled a bit, it would be nice for her to see the girls. How wrong could I of been! As soon as I said Hello to her, she was crying and accusing the nurses of torturing her again. My 2 year old grandaughter looked very frightened and I had to send my daughters and grandaughter away. I WILL NOT allow them to be subjected to this distress. Eldest daughter is pregnant again and it is so upsetting for them all. Thank God, my partner took over the talking to her. She was very confused last night. Bit like a loose connection in her brain - memory of things coming and going very quickly. Felt wrung out when we left. Am now becoming terrified of seeing her for the first time after she has gone into the home. she is still at a stage where she knows enough to know what is happening most of the time and she is going to let me have it big time when she is in a home. How long will this nightmare go on for?