grobertson62

I can't quite believe it but it is almost a year to the day since our life changed forever

dad had a fall on 5.1.11 & by the following day he didn't know who he or I was

a massive infection exacerbated the vascular dementia he already had

So it was the first time dad didn't know me
the first time we were told he would never be able to come home
first time we had to visit care homes
first time I had to use the POA
first time rowing with all & sundry to cancel phone contacts & insurances
First time he went into the home
First visit to the home & first time we left him there
First heart break but not the last
First fall in the home
First stroke in the home
First time I had to an end of life plan for him
first birthday without him
his first birthday in the home
my first parachute jump to raise money to raise awareness for this disease
and now
First Christmas in my life without him
and First New Year without dad............

so what for 2012 a year of seconds....

I can't believe it has been a year without the dad I knew & loved for all of my 49 years but I have had a year with a dad I still love different & not the same but loved just as much

I don't know how I would have got thro this last year without this site & the help & support of family & great friends

so if you are reading this and wondering how will I cope I don't know but some how you just do because you have to...

So good bye & good riddance to 2011 bring it on 2012 I am stronger now & know I can & will face whatever this disease throws at us