I cant' believe she's gone
byon 11-11-2011 at 09:09 AM (422 Views)
IT's just been so hard , some days i feel not too bad, today and yesterday I feel awful. I think it's because I'm tired.
I think now that I didn't appreciate her when she was well. Mum worked so hard for us all and we all turned out alright! I suppose I'm feeling guilt? I did everything I possibly could for her all along and I miss her so much. She was dying gradually, and at each stage I was grieving for that part of her that had died. It's been a hard road. Funny how I've had a back problem that goes back to when she took ill. I'm attending physio now and it should be fine soon.
I'm just lost and now it's hitting home that both my parents are gone and I feel lonely.
It's early days and I'm just taking each day at a time. It's hard to keep going.
Thank goodness for TP.