byon 19-10-2010 at 11:13 PM (771 Views)
Second session more mind-boggling than traumatising .... lots of tears, hysterical laughter once or twice, and realising digging this deep is hard, harder than any 'counselling' I have had before - but I have a brilliant therapist and the relationship is gelling and ‘sparring off’ ideas and thoughts with each other is already allowing one or two pennies to drop! And with understanding, of course, comes resolution.:)
Big discussion about ‘taking care of self’ between sessions. (Today has put me on a ‘high’ almost but acknowledging other weeks will no doubt have me spiralling down somewhere until I regain my balance again!) New rules: No surfing the web/visiting forums, websites etc where I might feel vulnerable .... no keeping company (real or virtual) which might ‘rub me up’ the wrong way :rolleyes: ... .....bags of self-nurture (including a nice Shiraz here and there!:)) ... and a bucketload of being selfish .... (OK, self-preserving) – oh and ‘homework’ to keep me outta mischief and mind focussed on ME! (Strange feeling!)
I’m excited now at taking this route ..... worried if I don’t keep in touch with TP I might lose the fire in my belly and all the up-to-date ‘news’ about the dementia cause ... but have a bigger bridge to cross first which, to make sure I personally am (excuse me poaching the phrase) ‘Fit for the Future’. :)
Will be thinking of so many of you ... and know I will be in touch with some ... but for now I am gathering my little acorns for the winter ahead. :)
Love – and thanks to everyone who has offered so much encouragement and support on this ‘challenge’. Starting as I mean to go, I have not even checked the main forums ...... I’d hate to think anyone has thought I have ‘ignored’ them and will understand why.
Best wishes to everyone with whatever particular battle they are facing just now, Kaz, x