jussiejus

Well I went to see a counsellor today, not just for dad, although that is the biggest thing in my life, but its how I feel everyone depends on me, and when I want to tell them exactly how I am feeling and all the various components that make it up to how I am feeling, they dont want to know.......... they dont want to know the pain of dad (cos it upsets them), they dont want to know the pain of a relationship ending (he wasnt good enough so dismissed) - no not dismissed, at the end of the day I ...

Well here I am sitting on the settee in the lounge, having catnapped, mostly what I seem to do these days, but still I shouldnt moan, I am in a better state than dad....................... last night he wouldnt go to bed until sometime between 1.30 and 2.30 and I know why, only because he is my dad and I know him well ..................... he is waiting for my mum, looking for her, watching out, hands reach out to her when she walks into the room and he sees her, his eyes dance and he holds her ...