lisa1

I feel adrift. I'm coping and getting on with daily life but it's very challenging. My kids and hubby keep me paddling on!
My sleep is disturbed, I keep dreaming that Mum is alive again and my conscious mind kicks in with the fact that she is dead. The dreams have been so real.
My dad died suddenly when I was little, now Mum's death seems like an avalanche and I have no idea how to go through it. I certainly can't go around it. Brick wall time folks...
Since Daddy died ...

IT's just been so hard , some days i feel not too bad, today and yesterday I feel awful. I think it's because I'm tired.
I think now that I didn't appreciate her when she was well. Mum worked so hard for us all and we all turned out alright! I suppose I'm feeling guilt? I did everything I possibly could for her all along and I miss her so much. She was dying gradually, and at each stage I was grieving for that part of her that had died. It's been a hard road. Funny how I've had a back ...

Mum died on 6th October 2011, she was in a beautiful Nursing home and received excellent care. We were all with her, I was with her so much over her last few weeks, I miss her so much and don't know what to do with myself. I feel so completely lost. Her death was peaceful but she had a hard time, Alzheimer's is a cruel disease, people dont know what it does, it attacked my mum's body, her initial stages with the disease were very difficult as she knew she was fighting something, god love her she ...

Haven't posted for a while, things were pretty settled, but I could see Mum going downhill in the res home she is in. Weepy, disorientated and now getting nasty
That is not Mum and if she were aware of how she is behaving she would be totally mortified!
Feel a bit helpless now I suppose, I don't know where she will end up. I hope and pray it will be at a EMI home who can handle her. I wonder how she will end her days....
The GP has called for a re-assessment ...

Mum's home is just off the phone to me, the secretary said Mum wanted to speak to me..I knew it was trouble!
So when she came on she asked me where I was, then asked if I was coming to lift her and take her to my house...
That's a first...just happen to be sitting at the computer when the call came through and thank goodness for TP!
Feeling very weird about this phone call, feeling a bit stressed, just having an odd conversation with her. Managed to put her off ...